Whirling Waters, Many Drown

Now that I have your attention, yeah me! I can’t sleep. I take enough sleep medications and tranquilizers to kill an elephant (according to my doctor), yet here I sit wide awake.

I was asleep for about 45 minutes and had a scary dream, hence the crazy title above. Normally I just take more medicine, flip on the tv, curse the powers to be and lie there, but this dream begged for something more.

So out of bed I got, searched for a pad of paper and a pencil and started scribbling what I remembered of the dream and of course, some dramatic effects and other tidbits.

Could I get a book out of this? Maybe a longer short story, or maybe another failed story that never really gets started. This involves research. Lot of research. My favorite thing to do until all these drugs (and the sleep deprivation) messed with my brain and I can’t think very well at times.

I already can’t read part of what I scribbled while first waking and starting to write. I have fixed what I can for now. NOW it is time to climb back in bed and see if the extra elephant tranquilizers will do the trick.

Don’t tell my doctor, she wasn’t happy this morning when I told her I did that. LOL! Thanks to my visits to the psychiatric nurse and the pulmonary doctor I am getting another sleep study and another BiPap machine. Never found a mask to work the first time. Their idea is that I am stopping breathing so long I am totally waking myself up constantly.

I have insurance now so I will make nice with the doctors and nurses for now. I really need sleep.

Where’s Mr. Sandman when you need him?

Tessa

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About Tessa

Teresa (Tessa) Smeigh is now in her 60's and still going strong despite her disabilities affecting both physical and mental abilities. She has bipolar disorder (mental), Fibromyalgia (nerves), degenerative disc disease (spine), and arthritis (joints). Despite that she is active in Mental Health Advocating, writing for www.IBPF.org (volunteer for non-profit) and has 5 blog posts already published by them. She is also working on 2 fiction books (mysteries). She keeps her blog filled with useful content, daily devotionals (She is a Christian), stories and poems. Plenty to keep you busy. She has also been interviewed by blogs and had other posts published on many different blogs. She has 3 blogs so far http://www.tessacandoit.com and http://www.finallyawriter.com and http://www.sunnythoughtsandprayers.wordpress.com She is from Deptford, NJ. Her family and blogs keep her busy.
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4 Responses to Whirling Waters, Many Drown

  1. jannatwrites says:

    I couldn’t imagine having to deal with sleep issues like that. My problem is I’m not allowing myself enough time for it and I want to nod off during the day.

    I hope you are able to get a story- or more from your dream. Good luck 🙂

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    • Tessa says:

      I have serious sleep issues. I am actually going for my 3rd sleep study tonight. Trying to find a mask that fits so I can use the machine for my sleep apnea. They think I am stopping breathing long enough to wake myself fully up.

      I have another story idea from a dream. A more feasible one. Who knows. With the Bipolar Disorder I have trouble working on anything long term.

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