Absence of Life

absence of color

no one listens anyhow

Death. Is. Forever!


This is a description of my black mood right now. It in no way means anything except as a way to describe my inner feelings at this time in my life. It is a reminder that no matter how dark and horrible life is, “Death is Forever.” I went there once and I am lucky to be he here now talking about it.  I do have family and friend support, but so many feel they don’t.


About Tessa

Teresa (Tessa) Smeigh at 60 plus is still going strong despite her disabilities affecting both physical and mental abilities. She has bipolar disorder (mental), Fibromyalgia (nerves), degenerative disc disease (spine), and arthritis (joints). Her new journey's include Diabetes controlled by insulin. She is also working on 2 fiction books (mysteries). The books will probably never be finished. She keeps her blog filled with useful content, occasional devotionals (She is a Christian), stories and poems. Plenty to keep you busy. She has also been interviewed by blogs and had other posts published on many different blogs. She is from Southern, NJ. Her family and blog keep her busy.
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6 Responses to Absence of Life

  1. FLO says:

    This sounds like how depression feels. When we are in the pit of despair we can’t hear the voices of family and friends. to us their voices sound like the grownups in the Charlie Brown tv productions, “blah, blah, blah”. Sounds without meaning. Winter is, I think, a harder time to be depressed because of the lack of light. When I feel that’s winter is lasting a long time, I remind myself that Spring WILL come. Hang in there!


  2. jannatwrites says:

    But sometimes in the darkest darkness, death seems almost comforting. I’m glad you have family and friends that can help you through it.


    • Tessa says:

      I am in a deep depression right now and the thought of death is not scary. I won’t try suicide again, but I can wish not to wake up. Then it is God’s choice not mien. Thanks for stopping by.


      • jannatwrites says:

        I know exactly how you feel. I felt this recently. I wouldn’t have fought death if it came for me but even as I thought that, I sensed God wouldn’t let me off that easy. When I get through those dark times, a part of me wonders if God will answer those anguished prayers for death when I finally feel joy again. I know that’s twisted, but it’s how my mind works. Anyway, I’ll keep you in my prayers 🙂


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