#WeekendCoffeeShare: Almost Holiday Time – Bah Humbug

weekendcoffeeshare#WeekendCoffeeShare: Almost Holiday Time

Another Saturday is passing. Bringing us closer to the holidays and I simply can’t tolerate either Thanksgiving or Christmas.

If we were having coffee I would tell you how sad and mad both holidays make me. I never enjoyed Christmas even as a child. We were poor, but my parents lucked into a house in a rich town. When Christmas came our friends got tons of stuff and we got a few things that my parents could afford. I never understood why Santa seemed to miss our house. I know that is petty, but not when you are a child and expecting Santa like all your friend.

I would tell you I didn’t know that I had bipolar disorder and didn’t know why I was so sad at times. My marriage was not a happy one and Christmas just made it worse. I hate to shop for anyone. I cry at Christmas Carols.

I would tell you Thanksgiving isn’t as bad and that is only because I get a great dinner and I don’t have to cook it. My sister does.

Before I really get started I would get going if I were you. Don’t let me start on my true feelings of the holidays and let me remind myself that Christmas is about Christ’s birth.

Have a Happy Thanksgiving every one!

Tessa

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About Tessa

Teresa (Tessa) Smeigh is now in her 60's and still going strong despite her disabilities affecting both physical and mental abilities. She has bipolar disorder (mental), Fibromyalgia (nerves), degenerative disc disease (spine), and arthritis (joints). Despite that she is active in Mental Health Advocating, writing for www.IBPF.org (volunteer for non-profit) and has 5 blog posts already published by them. She is also working on 2 fiction books (mysteries). She keeps her blog filled with useful content, daily devotionals (She is a Christian), stories and poems. Plenty to keep you busy. She has also been interviewed by blogs and had other posts published on many different blogs. She has 3 blogs so far http://www.tessacandoit.com and http://www.finallyawriter.com and http://www.sunnythoughtsandprayers.wordpress.com She is from Deptford, NJ. Her family and blogs keep her busy.
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14 Responses to #WeekendCoffeeShare: Almost Holiday Time – Bah Humbug

  1. I am sorry you did not have nice holidays when you grew up – have great weekend!

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  2. I don’t think you are the only one to feel this way. It is a family time and if you don’t have family you feel it acutely. I hope you get through without feeling too much pain. Hard for a child to understand. Hope you have a Happy Thanksgiving anyway.

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  3. Diana says:

    I think a lot of people dislike the holidays. Hope they’re not too bad this year.

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  4. I’ll try not to sound gauche, but a holiday without a ton of people would be nice once in a while. My thoughts are with you, Tessa!

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  5. roweeee says:

    Tessa, my Mum was the daughter of a poor Lutheran Church Pastor. They were all incredibly smart but really poor. Mum talked about the horrors of wearing the hand-me-downs of other Church families to Church and the burning sense of shame she felt. I don’t think it would have bothered me if the clothes were nice and I love op shopping but my daughter has said she doesn’t like the op shop clothes I give her and that she prefers Kmart clothes. She’s 9 and loves pictures on her clothes. I tend to buy her designer stuff cheaply at the op shop that’s better quality but perhaps not as fun. I think she also likes to wear some of the same clothes as her friends.
    It is hard to tick all the boxes as a parent.
    Santa is a bit of a problem. Hard for kids to understand why Santa is more generous to some than others. Different families also have different ideas on how much to spend and I know families less well off than us who’ll spend $800 on their kids presents. Not uncommon for them to buy all those electronic gadgets…ipads, wii,and not have much money. I can’t understand that.
    I belong to another blogshare 1000 Voices for Compassion and this month their theme was Gratitude. I’m a bit of a bahhumbug when it comes to gratitude due to my auto-immune disease and the stress it puts the family through and I think you’d appreciate what I wrote. https://beyondtheflow.wordpress.com/2015/11/22/the-wisdom-of-gratitude-1000speak/
    As bad as things have been, in retrospect, I’ve been able to appreciate that there were some good things happening as well. I know it’s a cliche but I’ve found it to be true…it could always be worse.
    Take care and while my situation is quite different and I love any kind of social celebration, I can appreciate your hurt and send you my love. xx Rowena

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  6. FLO says:

    I can empathize with you about the holidays and being poor. Even as an adult there were years when we couldn’t provide so much as a Christmas tree. Compared to my own mother’s experience we were doing great. She enjoyed a Christmas tree precisely once when she was a child and that was a gift from a neighbor. The holidays have never been about things, rather time spent with family. There were times when, in some ways, it was actually pleasant. Maybe this year there will be good things at Thanksgiving and Christmas. At least you don’t have to cook!

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  7. A lot of emotions raised here. I like stories when people start down and find their way up. They are thrilling. Thanks for sharing.

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