If we were having coffee

If we were having coffee

If we were having coffee today it would be in the afternoon as I did my usual brunch with my friend.

I would have a long story to tell you about last couple of months while I was off grid. Started with a fall down the stairs (no broken bones) and continued with a trip to the Psychiatric ER as I had a major incident. And it just kept going. Even had an eye procedure done while going through all this.

I just got new medication to replace the disastrous medication attempt in the hospital. Hope this is not as bad as the last change.

My medications are controlled by my adult children since I used them for my suicide attempt last time and planned on doing it again. Hence the intervention. I am also moved to a downstairs room so I don’t fall down those stairs again. I hate it down here, small for one thing and I like my isolated room to myself upstairs. Now I am in the middle of things, also kid’s intervention. I know they are worried about me and taking care of me in their way. 2 months and I still have stuff to unpack and I can’t find things since they tossed them in boxes and brought them down.

Oh well, this too shall pass.


About Tessa

My name is Tessa Dean and I am an author and blogger. My writing styles vary and I love writing using prompts. I am also writing my first book, a Memoir entitled "Government Property - A Memoir of a Military Wife".  This is being published on the blog rather than the traditional way. I am putting up chapters as I go along. I keep my blog filled with useful content, stories, and poems. Plenty to keep you busy. I have also been interviewed by blogs and had other posts published on many different blogs. I also wrote a series of articles on Bipolar Disorder for IBPF (International Bipolar Foundation). I am in my 60’s and disabled which allows me plenty of time to write to my heart’s content. I live in southern New Jersey and have 3 children and 5 grandchildren. My oldest grandchild is a Sargent in the United States Marine Corps.
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9 Responses to If we were having coffee

  1. Deb says:

    I would take tiny sips of my coffee and listen. I would empathize and lean in to hold your hand as you talk. I may not offer much…but I hope you know I understand a little bit. And that you are not alone.

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  2. FLO says:

    Hmmm. Well, you can go through part of one box just to see if it’s stuff you actually want to keep. I’d try the one item at a time method where you just pick up one thing and make a decision. Takes a while to get it under control but it doesn’t pressure you to make speedy decisions. As for the meds well on a positive note it seems you are being cared for by your family who want you to live. You are much safer not having to cope with the stairs. Take your time on processing all that comes your way. Maybe this new med will make a positive change.I understand about your new bedroom breaking down your wall against the world. Perhaps you could walk around the outside of your house and enjoy the flowers and trees? Maybe you could read your book in the living room or kitchen? Just for a few minutes.Sending you cyber hugs and lots of strength to deal with life.

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    • Tessa says:

      Thanks Flo. I am slowly getting things settled. Now allowed to have anymore things in here til these are done or I can prove that I really need it. Son is helping with hoarding problem. We did get rid of a lot of stuff. My car was packed for the thrift store and we had a lot of trash. Still got a ways to go.


  3. Sorry to hear about your fall as usual when I am depress I can find someone who has more to contend with tham my self. Thanks for health. Prayers for you to be able to handle what you must. Good wishes and Hugs.

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  4. Tessa I sad that you feel so desperate and that this has resulted in an intervention that meant a move to a room that you are not as happy being in. Perhaps when you get those boxes unpacked, and can find things again and set it up as your space it will seem a little brighter. I hope the new medication also makes you feel a little better. You are lucky having children that love you – even if they do take action that isn’t to your liking. Glad to see you back and enjoyed sharing a coffee with you. Giving you a big hug as I leave.

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  5. Corina says:

    I’m sorry you aren’t well. Just keep in mind that your children are doing this for you. They love you and want you around. Maybe being downstairs will help your spirits. I hope you are better soon.

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