The Rage Within

The Rage Within

Deep in her dark, torturous

mind she would dwell.

 

No one really knew

her own personal hell.

 

To the world she presented

a woman who was care-free.

 

No one really knew her,

not even her own family.

 

One day she lashed out at all,

shocking everyone she knew.

 

She held it in as long as she

could, but finally it all blew.

 

Friends and family, very concerned,

stepped in to help her out.

 

She no longer was in control,

she knew without a doubt.

 

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I woke up at 4 AM and couldn’t sleep. This poem wanted to be written. There are times when I couldn’t write a poem if my life depended on it and other days it has to come out. There would be no more sleep until this was done. This is non-fiction. This is what is in my head and what happened recently.

Tessa

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About Tessa

Teresa (Tessa) Smeigh is now in her 60's and still going strong despite her disabilities affecting both physical and mental abilities. She has bipolar disorder (mental), Fibromyalgia (nerves), degenerative disc disease (spine), and arthritis (joints). Despite that she is active in Mental Health Advocating, writing for www.IBPF.org (volunteer for non-profit) and has 5 blog posts already published by them. She is also working on 2 fiction books (mysteries). She keeps her blog filled with useful content, daily devotionals (She is a Christian), stories and poems. Plenty to keep you busy. She has also been interviewed by blogs and had other posts published on many different blogs. She has 3 blogs so far http://www.tessacandoit.com and http://www.finallyawriter.com and http://www.sunnythoughtsandprayers.wordpress.com She is from Deptford, NJ. Her family and blogs keep her busy.
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2 Responses to The Rage Within

  1. jannatwrites says:

    I remember when you wrote about those days. I hope you are in a better place now (and are able to sleep tonight without poems keeping you awake!)

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    • Tessa says:

      At the moment the midnight poems are quiet. I am more at peace right now between returning to God and church and the new medication which seems to be working so far. However, I can get side-effects even months after starting so right now I am happy to be feeling pretty good.

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